2021 Recap

 Hi Assalammualaikum!

Masih ada ke yang follow blog ni? Kalau ada, alhamdulillah terima kasih. Kalau takde, takpe. I masih ada passion nak menulis kat sini seakan luahan hati lah. Ada benda nk share, nak story.. I simpan sini. Mana tau boleh jadi pedoman or benefit kat org lain. 

Just a little update... I changed my career. No longer content creator. I thought I could survive lah kononnya tapi tak boleh go jauh lagi. Bukan manja or mengada, tp I seriously tak boleh hidup normal kalau I teruskan. Yang pernah rasa akan faham. Dulu I pun tak faham kenapa kwn I stop designing coz she’s super talented but now I get it. Atm, I'm working dlm bahagian e-commerce. Lari bidang sikit lah tapi so far boleh survive and adapt lagi. Masih mampu bertahan. 

A quick update... last year was so hard for me. I struggle over gila just to feel happy and jalani kehidupan seharian. i'm sure everyone else pun lalui benda yg sama with the pandemic and wfh. It was so, so freaking hard. Sampai satu tahap, I rasa mcm tak nak teruskan hidup. I takut nak hidup. Takut nak hadap orang. Takut dgn diri sendiri. That was really the lowest point of me - which I never expect. I had experience before rasa jatuh terduduk - but this time, another kind of pain. I betul2 lose control and bila teringat sampai skrg dada rasa sesak and sedih. I lawan semua tu sorang2 sbb I tak tahu nak mntk tolong siapa. I bukan jenis bercerita dgn orang and I tahu tak semua faham dan percaya because of my personality. 

Kalau kenal I personally, I takde lah happy go lucky all the time. I seorang yg pendiam dan sangat2 mementingkan org lain. I simpan apa I rasa. I tak nak org tahu sbb I rasa mcm org x expect benda tu from me. Tgh taip ni pun rasa sakit kt dada and berdebar sbb benda ni trigger my anxiety. Tapi I nak bagitau yg you're not alone. Kalau rasa mcm yg I cerita ni, seek for help! Please jangan pendam sorang diri and expect it's gonna be okay. IT IS NOT. You kena lawan rasa takut tu and go for a therapy or professional help. Mental health is no joke and whatever you feel is valid. 

Adulting is hard. Adulting is super tired. Adulting is no fun.

Ada masa fun but when you're getting older, the pressure is real. Terasa sakit dan penat nak hadap hari mendatang. Nak bangun pergi kerja pun rasa berat. It's no joke. Rindu sangat zaman belajar dulu. Time tu tak fikir hidup sgt. Just nak enjoy and get that ijazah. Even during master pun I rasa happy and fun. Belajar is fun. Kalau ada rezeki or peluang utk sambung belajar, just go. Majikan or orang lain might not pandang your sijil because experience is preferable but just go. I tak menyesal sambung even kerja skrg biasa2 je but I rasa puas. I proved myself.

I share bukan nak simpati tapi as reminder to myself yg I tak salah. I did my best and Allah tahu apa yg terbaik utk I. Kalau one day I question balik, I tahu I buat apa yg I mampu and I take boleh nak puaskan hati semua orang. Now I jadi selfish sikit. I pentingkan diri I dulu. Kalau benda tu menyusahkan dan menyakitkan I, jangan go. I nak hidup cara I. Bukan x nak keluar dari comfort zone but I know my limit. I kenal myself mcm mana and apa yg I hadap dulu sangat2 mendewasakan I. Cukup lah. 

I'm feeling better now and I tahu akan ada bye good news lg in sha Allah! I just need to focus on myself and believe in myself more. Jangan rasa diri tak guna or bodoh. Kita semua pandai in our own ways. 

(tak cerita pasal jodoh lagi ni haha serious I redha bab ni and kalau ditakdirkan tak kahwin pun mcm lantak lah coz I mmg love myself je skrg - healing phase)

Cara Apply Master UiTM

Hi Assalammualaikum!

Before this, ada few of my friends yang cari i tanya how to apply master uitm since they are not from uitm, so i decide nak share kat sini lah. In case ada yang berniat nak sambung belajar, then just go on. Lantak lah orang nak cakap apa, it's our life. For me, i rasa bangga jgk lah dpt habiskan master like at least i ada satu achievement yang maybe org lain tak mampu nak buat. So, good luck guys! 

1) IPSIS

First thing first, korang tgk kt website ipsis uitm dulu apa course yg ditawarkan and kenal pasti dulu which one yg korang nak. Ipsis ni stand for Institute of Graduate Studies atau bahasanya Institut Pengajian Siswazah. It's for master and phd. Kat sini dia ada bgtahu mcm mana nak apply for new intake. Since I’m from Faculty of Art and Design, so i akan share more on this lah. But the details maybe on my next entry. I akan explain about my master and what it is all about. 

2) NO PIN

Bila dah tahu what course nak amik (or you can skip this step) tapi i sarankan you cari dulu, buat research course apa you nak and compare dgn uni lain. If betul2 nak sambung kat uitm, then proceed to next step: beli no pin bsn. Be careful bila nak beli sbb my friend pernah tersalah beli yg untuk ijazah punya. Ckp kat org bank tu nak beli NO PIN UITM MASTER / IJAZAH SARJANA bukan sarjana muda tau sbb tu degree and harga dia RM50. Kalau degree, rm10 je. Or nak selamat, korang boleh beli online from ipsis. Just buat payment to Bendahari Uitm and then email dorang. This one for malay and bumiputera only. Boleh get the info here. Check fees kat sini pun boleh.

Later, you follow je step yang dorang tulis kt website tu then settle! I tak sure how long the process will take tapi tak lama lah. Sbb lepastu kena pergi interview dulu. Oh btw nanti dia akan mintak referee reports so better cari lecturers yg baik dgn you and lecturers yg ada title like dr, proffesor so nanti nampak stand out sikit (sbb masa iv, dorang tgk referee report i and amaze bila one of the referees is a dr). But any lectures are okay. My advise, you email dulu lecturer tu tanya boleh tak jadi referee you and email them the report so dorang boleh go through. Jangan muncul suddenly then minta lecturer isi on spot. Mcm tak proper lah even rapat mcm mana pun but still, have some manner. I dulu email the report and they isi online (pdf converter) and then print. I tak sempat nak baca pun apa dorang tulis haha sbb time tu rushing nak pergi submit.

No worries, kalau dah apply tu confirm dapat lah. My friend submit satu referee report je sbb dia salah baca or miss communication mcm tu and gaduh jap dgn akk office tu hahaha but in the end, dpt je masuk. So jgn risau. Just follow the steps and in sha Allah okay je semua. Make sure korang lengkap kan everything and jgn ada miss anything tau! 

p/s: Sorry banyak komen yang tak sempat nak reply. Anything, just dm me on instagram: akmalsempurna